I just realized the only way I'm ever truly happy is when I'm living in my imagination. Everything is almost perfect in my head but if for once I just out of my dreamland I wake up into shit and depression. I'm never happy. I just want a life like in my mind. It sounds crazy yeah but it's all so much better there. There's hardly any drama, there are people I can actually bare to be around, and I'm not here. I wish I could just live inside my head with everything in it real. My whole life is a lie.

I knew I would make no impact on his life.

Never thought it would hurt this much. I broke up with him. I mean sure she asked but I've finally completely shattered. Fml.

I'm terrified.

I want to end it but I don't know how. Kelly if you read this. Help me please =[

Why does this has to happen? Everytime. Every fucking time. Good god and now I think I have feelings for him because he's always there and so nice but it will never happen. I'm losing my friends and next year will be all alone. Yet I'm still afraid to leave.

I'm so tired of living here and being yelled and bitched at for stupid things. I get it I'm not very bright. Sorry I'm not that future doctor you wanted.

I feel like I have no real friends...=/

Everything he likes about me is things he's heard from other people that aren't true. I knew this was too good for me.

That is the 8th fucking time you have hit me tonight. I can't take this anymore.

Please be over soon. I'm tired of these people. I remember why I hate people now.

This is the first time in a long time I've hidden my sadness. It's easier this way

I think he just wants someone to flirt with.

I can't breath.

His name keeps popping up >_>

God her and her fortunate life. The guy she likes likes her and so many other things and she still complains! Wtf! So irritating! I know I don't have it as bad as I could but it's so irritating! Ugh!

God damn an eighth grader can get more boyfriends than me

I love not being aware of things. Starting to question my choice of friends.

I'm so fucking tired of this house and these people. I want to get away from here now. Nothing should be like this. None of this should happen. I obviously am not allowed to be happy.

I love how I'm like a second choice to a majority of my friends.

I would love to know why people are ignoring me.

ughh why is it everyone I like ignores me and goes out with some random person?! All the time. I give up.

GAHHHHH I just depressed myself deeply. I looked at a certain persons facebook and saw his picture and my heart broke into a million pieces. I didn't think I liked him that much and I know that I don't have a chance in hell but it just hit me hard... =/

I'm terrified of death. It's weird but I want to know what happens the whole HEAVEN PEARLY GATES thing is kind of hard for me to believe no matter how many times I go to church. I'm also scared I'll loose my friends because of my constant complaining and messing up. I want to live life more I want to be happier but I don't know how to change any of this. I need help.

Motherfuckingcocksuckingbitchfacewhore

New year new phone new friends new attitude. I'm excited. I love Kelly Graham btw